So here I am, writing my first blog post. My fingers are still a little stiff from training, the healing skin on my knuckles itching too close to the bone. At least I can see now whether or not I’m using the right knuckles to hit my target.

Update: I’m not.

I started practicing jiu-jitsu about two years ago, back when I was taking a year off from school. I could tell you my sob story in great detail but here’s the itty gritty in a nutshell: I, like many others, have an anxiety disorder. Unlike many others, I got the opportunity to work on it and see a therapist and take time off from school and other stressful activities for a year. In exchange, following the deal I made with my parents, I had to find something to get myself out of bed every day. Which is easier said than done, to be honest.

Anyway, fast-forward to finding the dojo. Man, that was quite a day. First, I overcame my fear of telephone calls (I know I’m not the only one with this anxiety ok) to ask if it was possible for me to come in for a trial run. Of course I forgot to leave behind my phone number, which resulted in my calling back, panties in a twist, fumbling through those 10 stupid digits as though my life depended on it.

Two years later, here I am, stupendously proud of myself for biting the bullet and putting myself in a situation I knew would most certainly cause a fuck ton of stress. First days are never easy, especially if you’ve got a lot riding on them.

I’m going into too much detail again. The point is, jiu-jitsu played a huge role in the recovery of my self-confidence. So much so that last year I decided to go back to school. I am now a Media-and-Entertainment Business student. Which, sure, mouthful. It’s actually a really interesting course, and I’m happy I chose it. I get to surround myself with passionate people, like-minded thinkers and creative entrepreneurs. OK I’m waxing poetic here. Still, writing myself into MEB has inspired me to keep progressing. Not necessarily in the direction they’re corralling us into, just, in general. I want to keep working on myself.

Which brings us to the reason why I created this blog. I know I’m not the only one who feels overwhelmed by the pressures of society. In the keep-up-keep-up-keep-up mentality of today, it’s not much of a shocker that people tend to lose sight of what’s really important. Personal happiness. I don’t (can’t) claim to know the solution to depression or anxiety, because, tbh, I’m not sure there is one. But I know several helpful hints and tricks and I like to think I’m a good listener. My goal is to create a nice and safe online nook where people can chill and we can relate and maybe whine about stuff when it suits us.

So without any further ado, let’s cut the ribbon on this bitch.

Written by Cara
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